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Tuesday, December 31, 2013


Before everyone held their champagne cup high and keep their eyes staring at the clock.
Before the clock hits 12:00am with the unusual cheer for something so routine to it.
I just want to take a minute to write down my feelings

2013 had been an unusual great year for me
Not that everything was smooth, instead the road was pretty bumpy to begin with
But time flies in 2013 like it never did before
The tears, the smile, the anger, the pain
All just went off like it never happened before
but yet they never fail to leave a mark in my heart

I can still recall what had happened at this particular moment in 2012
In fact my 2012 has been playing like a movie inside my mind for the past month
I remembered how I plan for something to happen today
yet I end up in a totally different place today

I've taken a few turns this year
Turns that was not planned, turns that I didn't expect
But I'm glad that I wasn't alone in all of those moments
Because all I have to do is to turn around and there He will be

2014 will be a great year.

Not because there's some sort of magic that makes new years special
No.
The sun will still rise the same
The ants will still hunt for food
and I, well... will still be me.

Remember?
Only human count the years, months, days, hours, minutes and seconds.
There's nothing really special about it if you really think about it.

But a new year means I have lost another year.
And time is limited for a reason.

And if I want change,
I need to change.

So it doesn't really matter if there's a count down or not.
If I've decided to change, a brand new adventure is waiting for me.

So count down to the last second of 2013

and invite a new YOU for a greater YEAR!

Happy New Year my dear readers!

Love,
Constance

The Best of 2013

Monday, December 30, 2013


Something we must do every end of the year is to give thanks to God for what had happened this year.

And I, like every other person in this planet earth decided to list down  TOP 10 most wonderful events that God decided to make it happen this year.

So let us count it down from number 10! *Obviously*

#10 The Love for Drawing
I never ever thought I will love drawing this much. From drawing things that took place today to random shapes and lines, drawings just makes me calm in some weird way and I love it!


#9 The New Found love with my Uke
I haven't "officially" announced it in my blog yet, but I got my Uke a few months back and it had been a charm to me. I love the feeling of sing praise and worship songs to God while playing my Uke. It brings the whole worship experience to another level. And I always have this joy in my heart after playing with it.

#8 The ever encouraging Dr Mike
I've been having back problem for years. And earlier this year, I went and did a small operation because the pain was killing. (read it here) But the operation was a temporarily solution and I was still depending on some other things like back joy to support my back. But now, with my chiropractor, my back is getting better already and I even got to run a marathon this year (read it here) and I wore high heels with no problem at all! And my doctor say I'm 70% recovered! Pretty exciting!

#7 Exemption for PLKN
To just mention it right here will be very unfair, because the process of getting the exemption is really a miracle to me. It shows me how good God is and I just can comprehend His wisdom and plans with my own human mind. But yes, I got the exemption for PLKN and I can never thank God enough.Not because of the exemption, but because of His glory that is revealed to me.

#6 The bonding with CG members
I really love my CG members so so much! Especially a girl name Pearl. LOL. Her testimonies are always super encouraging and challenging as well. I'm pretty excited to see what God had installed for her in the years ahead.

Sometimes I can be pretty introvert and moody, but they never failed to cheer me up! They are really bunch of crazy people who are also crazy for God! Love them much!

#5 The nannies
Who knows helping out at Chinese Church Camp as nannies can meet a bunch of girls that bond so well. I never really had close girl-friends before but I thank God I've meet them.


# 4 The best friend
This one needs no explanation.

Look forward to our adventures ahead of us!

#3 The leader
2013 had been a bumpy ride for me. But I thank God for Shirley for always being there for me and not giving up on me. I won't lie but I struggle to be accountable to her sometimes, but I glad I force myself to cause to have her as a spiritual covering is really a blessing.

#2 The family
No matter what happens I know they got my back. 
And I love them for that.

#1 The All Mighty Creator and Savior and Ever Loving Abba Father
Without His grace to keep me in His grace I would have wonder off to some sort of darkness that the enemy wish me to be. God never fails.He really never. 

He have all these well planned out before I was even born, to bring me back to Him and live under His blessings.

I love God so so much!

And I'm believing a greater year ahead of me, seeing His plans unfold for my life!

-End-

Love,
Constance

her name is PEGGY CHANG

Wednesday, December 25, 2013


I've been blogging on and off for a few years already. If I'm not mistaken, I blogged using Friendster back in the days of 2005 or 2006. I don't really remember the exact date la!
But ever since then, my life have been tangled with blogging.
Reading other's and writing mine.

But this year, something special happened.

I became a stalker!

Over the years of reading blogs I've never been this obsessed with a particular blog.
Not that I'm proud of it, but because of her I became a stalker.
I've read most of her blog posts.
I even found her old blog and read through it. 
*I wanted to say I read ALL but I think I accidentally missed a few here and there.*
I really appreciate and LOVE that little space where she opens up her life to readers like me.
I'm so obsessed that I miss reading her post every now and then.
I will reread her old posts and when I discover something new about her, I get very excited!
*teehee*

What so special about her you asked?

She inspires me.

She might have a few bumps here and there but she never gives up.
She's brave to take on any chances and just do what she want and most importantly she's not afraid to be herself.

And now that she have a cafe in Singapore, I've been dying to go there and visit it myself!
*Oh~ Will May come faster?*

All I want to say is this, she inspires me to take risks and be transparent.
Is normal to have fear in life, but you got to take a leap of faith and try.
And is also normal that other people want to have a say in your life, but the decision is yours.
Because the life you live is yours.

Oh~ I just love how she lives her life being her.
*hehehehehehe*

Tell you a secret, she's one of the reason I cut my hair short again.
She looks great in short hair! So do I! *Shameless*
Having short hair really doesn't make me less of a woman, I am still a girl you know.

But being as famous as she is, she have a few nasty comments.
I can never understand why other judge based on what bloggers write.
What she blogged is just part of her life, not all of it. 
How can they think they know the bloggers well enough (to judge) just merely from reading their blogs?
I really don't understand.

Anyway, I just wanted to dedicate this post to her for no other reason than how much I love reading her blog and how much she has inspired me.

Thank you!

Love, 
Constance

The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom

Sunday, December 22, 2013


After reading the book "Captivating", I kept telling people that if there's only one book they gonna read in 2014, make it that book! But that only applies to the ladies, because the book is about women and God. 

So for men, I would probably recommend them to read the one for men first. Although I have yet to read it, I've heard a lot of good comments about it! It's on the 3rd of my to-read list.

Don't ask me what's on the top of that list, because I have no idea. 
*Say WHAT?!*
(Read this is a high pitched tone)

Ya. Cause Shirley mentioned that she will give me a book for Christmas, and usually it will be my priority to read what she gives first. Because in 2013, the books I received from her are definitely not randomly picked. It normally suits perfectly into the season that I'm in.

OK. I digress.

The purpose of this post is to share the other best book I've read in 2013. 

The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom

#1 Men alone fear of time running out
Try to imagine a life without timekeeping.

You probably can't. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There's a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calender, a time for dinner or a movie.

Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays. 

Man alone measures time.

Man alone chimes the hour.

And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no creature endures.

A fear of time running out.
~ pg. 8 of The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom

#2 It is never too late
"It is too late."

The old man shook his head. "It is never too late or too soon. It is when it is supposed to be."
~pg. 81 of The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom

#3 Why
"There is a reason God limits our days."

"Why?"

"To make each one precious."
~ pg. 210 of The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom

I think this book have indirectly change my perspective of  "time".

Especially when it comes to God.

Sometimes we prayed for something and it didn't happen "on-time" we wonder why it didn't happen at that particular moment that we wished for. And when our prayer is finally answered and we look back from there, we would see the miraculous hands of God working and His timing IS ALWAYS the "right-timing". 

But the fact is if we do not measure time, then there won't be such fear/doubt.

But at the same time the awareness of the scarcity of time is so important. Without it, we might live life as how we like, neglecting the urgency to do the work for His Kingdom. (out of love towards Him and not out of obligation)

But come to think of it, the awareness of time-limit can exist without time-keeping.

Agree?

Love,
Constance

The only day of the year that I'm not QUEEN

Thursday, December 19, 2013


After knowing her for almost 3 years, this is the first year that we have so called proper celebration for her birthday. Because of her enthusiasm and my mom's constant nagging to treat her better, I decided to do it BIG(ger) this year. So I decided to treat her seafood for dinner on her birthday and she choose to have it in Seremban.

Yup! We actually went done to Seremban just to have her birthday dinner! 
 

This girl was so excited about this trip even the day before her birthday. >< and I was like 
Can you chillax a bit?

So we drove down after work. Because her working hours ends later than mine, so she decided to take half day off so that we can leave straight after I finish work. But at the end, she went pump petrol and wash car which delayed the journey.

But the trip down to Seremban was smoother than expected. We expect to stuck on the road for hours, we even bought entertainment (my ukulele) but it was smooth journey all the way. Maybe she secretly prayed to God for a smooth journey so that she don't have to suffer from listening to my horrible singing. LOL.

*sorry no picture of us on the road. Busy catching up.*

So we ordered 3 dishes for this special occasion. 

Stir Fry Kangkung (RM 8)
 
If you wonder why we did not order Kangkung Belacan instead, this is why. The first/previous time I went, I went with my parents. And my mom ordered Stir Fry Kangkung because she don't usually order spicy food and it tasted GREAT! So I insisted to order this dish. Although the waiter keep saying Kangkung Belacan, and I keep correcting her and say Stir Fry KangKung! LOL!

And it tasted GOOOOOOD! Yums!
The best non-belacan Kangkung I ever have!

Coconut Soup (RM 7)
This soup taste like Chinese herbal soup with the extra sweetness from the coconut. Not my personal favorite, but Oyan say the more she drinks, the more she likes it! Be sure to taste it before it gets cold, sometimes when the crabs come, we forget about it and soup is best taste when is HOT!

Mamic (is this the correct spelling?) Crab (RM 88)
 
We ordered one big crab to share because with other dishes we are afraid that we couldn't finish. And I glad we did so, because we were sooooo full after clearing up all the dishes. 

The crab was partially too dry and partially yummy. For further explanation please see below. LOL

I think is because they grill the crab, that's why when the meat with thicker shell is nicely cooked, the other parts turn out too dry. But overall still very nice, cause the yummy part really tasted supper YUMMY!
 
Don't even need to put the sauce they gave us.

We then head back to my place and I have to drive because is her birthday, therefore she's the QUEEN. She enjoyed it so much she ask me if she become queen once a month. ><

Permission not granted! Because I AM THE QUEEN!
 
Oh! I even got a pressie on her birthday! *yeah*

Love,
Constance
 
 

My Cyber Monday Shopping Haul

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

 
I've been MIA for a few days by now. Maybe not long enough for you to miss me but definitely long enough for me to miss blogging.

I went to Chiang Mai for a modelling trip and the photographers are Malaysia's upcoming top photographers! They are my mom and dad. LOL.

They took so much photos of my sister and I that by the end of the day our mouth are more tired than our legs! All those smiling and posing is not easy at all! Haha. But honestly speaking it was a great and fun trip! Will upload some of my photos here later~ Because I want to share with you guys what I got in my mail today!


Yup! My orders from HiShop finally arrived! *teehee*
Actually it arrived on Thursday (12/12), but since I wasn't around to collect the package, my colleague was kind enough to keep it for me (with the price of one packet of choki-choki). So I was pretty excited when I go to work yesterday. Nothing pleases a girl than a box full of beauty products!

When I open the package and saw this pretty box, my heart melted!
I love collecting boxes, don't ask me why.

Let me just show what I got for my very first purchase from HiShop!

Stage foundation brush (RM 90)

I've been watching those beauty tips video from YouTube and it seems like a foundation brush is essential. Besides my hand sweats A LOT! Especially when I'm in a hurry, so I think I need it. I was considering getting myself a basic set of Sephora brushes, but if I only need one to complete the set that I have, why waste more money right?

Nature's Lab Clarifying Shampoo 500ml (RM 63)

My hair get very oily very quickly and it tends to fall-off. And I've tried different types of shampoos, those sold in pharmacy, saloon and even direct sales! But nothing really works for me. So I'm pretty excited to try this one! It suppose to help my scalp too! *fingers crossed* Hope I finally found my perfect match!

Sana Super Quick Eyeliner EX (RM 49.90)

Well, I have no good excuse for this. I just want it because I never seen or tried eyeliner with a tip like that! I tested it on my hand earlier and it seems quite water proof! Gonna put it to the test this weekend!

Garden of Eden Rosa T Mild Cleanser 100ml (RM 18.90)
 
Bought this cause mine is finishing. Don't really like the current one I'm using. Is not bad, but not good either. So I decided to try a new product and I choose this cause it state that it have hazel extract or something! LOL! 

And they let me choose 2 free samples! 
*I'm not sure if it applies to all purchase or only first purchase*

Charmzone New Control Cream 3g (FREE SAMPLE)

Charmzone Albatross Waterful CC Cream 3g (FREE SAMPLE)
 
Up to now, I'm pretty satisfied with their service. Look at how they protect my purchase.

Some shops just don't care if the product reach your hands in good condition, but they really put in effort! 
 
And they give me vouchers too!

But one minor thing that confuse me is their email notification. In the websites, it is stated that they will send us an email with tracking number to notify us that the purchase is shipped. But I only received the email on Sunday. Which doesn't make sense because the package arrived on Thursday. I think they got to work on that! 

Oh! And did I mention that I bought all these products with 40% discount? I bought all these during their Cyber Monday 40% off everything promotion!

I'm a wise consumer!
*pat self on the head*

Love,
Constance

 

I think he hates me

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

 
Have you ever had that experience when that special someone just reacts to you differently?
I mean, when he talks to other people he seems friendly and all, maybe even being very loving and patient. But when it comes to you, he just gives you the "cold treatment" like you doesn't exist or you doesn't mean anything to him. Sometimes he will even throw tantrum towards you and you ONLY.
 
And so you wondered if you did anything wrong that had offended him or hurt him.
But no matter how hard you try to recall, you recall nothing other than those good moments that you spend together and one hurtful moment when that sudden drastic change of his attitude towards you first took place.
 
And then you think to yourself.
"He hates me"
 
Experience all this before?
 
Well, this is what's going on between me and my laptop.
*face palm*
 
I seriously have no idea what is going on with my laptop.
 
Oyan and my sister both brought my laptop to be repaired.
 
Oyan went to a computer shop and that guy couldn't find the problem despite doing all those test on BOTH hardware and software.
 
My sister went to look for a friend of hers and he help me to reformat my laptop and it seems fine after that.
 
BUT the problem is this, I still can't use my laptop!
 
I don't know why he behaved so well when others are using/repair him. But then when it comes to me, he just choose to shut himself down and refuse to let me complete my work.
 
I've been wanting to blog some other things and post some video, but I guess with my laptop going against me I can do nothing but pray. LOL
 
So no, there isn't any photos or video today. Because I'm just too sad/disappointed/ confuse about my laptop. So much to work on, yet none can be done.
 
><
 
Love,
Constance
 


Made from 90% phone and 10% PC

Thursday, December 5, 2013

 
Finally my laptop decided to commit suicide. I've try to revived it a few times and it didn't work. I even pray for it to be on but nothing happened. So I guess is time for me to pray for a new laptop instead. LOL
 
Ok, I digress. That's not what I wanna talk about today.
 
Last weekend, Kerry and I decided to just tag along with Jeff.G to go back to his hometown. Well, actually Kerry decided to go and she asked me to go with her and so I went. And I really had a great time catching up with them. Is been a while since I last hang out and talked to them.

Is a short 1 day 1 night trip. So we didn't visited a lot of places but we went to 2 different paddy fields. Finally got the chance to see golden brown paddy field! *Thank you Jeff.G!!!*

Ok. Enough of my verbal vomit, let the pictures do the talking. I took some video also, but due to the fact that my laptop is dead now, I can only upload the photos. Better than nothing la~~~~

This is us visiting the paddy field after breakie!

We looked happy don't we?

Is actually raining! LOL

My modeling skill need lots of improvement!

And his mama cooked us lunch! YUMMY!

Not only that! They even open one durian specially for Kerry!

I ate too! Is been years since I last eat durian~ super give face lo!

This little girl decided to join in the durian feast!

"I ain't got teeth, but this ain't stopping me from eating durian!" LOL

She really love it!

And this is golden paddy field!!!

The humble filled paddy!

A must take photo!

 Looked like I photo boom them. But the fact is Kerry just want to block me!

The crazy us! And yes, it was going to rain AGAIN!

And this is our dinner before we go back! 
We actually waited all the food to come so that we can take picha! ><

Dinner with beer! Lol!
No la~ is Chinese tea!
  
I can't wait till the weekend comes!
Imma going back to my hometown for my mama's retirement dinner and this time Oyan decided to tag along. 
Ok la~ I'm the one who asked her la~~~
*teehee*
 
Love,
Constance
 
 

I might just resign out of shame

Monday, December 2, 2013


As usual, I was talking to God on my way to work. And I felt God was saying to me that today will be an "interesting" day at work. So I was like bring it on!

As long as I have God I have nothing to worry. And boy! What happened today is like the most embarrassing thing that could happen to me in my workplace!

I've officially become the laughingstock of my department. ><

So this is what happened.

I just came back from that Indian convenient store near my office with some choki-choki.

And I was happily eating it while minding my own business when one of my colleague ST (our office "skype") me and asked me about something. I wasn't sure about it so I stood up and asked another colleague sitting opposite me. And when we were talking, my phone rang, and the nightmare began.

Before I go on, I should clarify that my phone only rings for 2 reasons.
1) Public call into the office line and the whole office's phone will ring until the receptionist or someone else picks up the call.
2) There's a need for me to meet so the receptionist pass the call to me.

When that happened, it was ONLY MINE that was ringing. So I assumed the call is from the receptionist. And me being me, who likes to play a fool with the receptionist, I picked up the phone and straight away say "不得空啊!" (read: I'm busy a!). And to my horror, it wasn't the receptionist.

...
...
...

My heart sank like how the great ship of Titanic sank, but mine took place in a split second. And the worst part is I could only recognize the caller's voice after a while and is the other head of my department. 

I didn't wanted to explain at the first place, but after some thoughts I did explained to her and told her that I thought it was the receptionist. I think she thought I was serious and I didn't want to pick up calls, but the truth is I always do that with the receptionist before I answer the calls that she passes to me. It was purely a joke.

I told the receptionist that from now on I will answer my phone with a high-pitched friendly "HELLO!"

And they just can't stop laughing at me.

Man. 
I cannot express how embarrassed I felt.
I end up eating all my Choki-choki to make me feel better and calm.

There goes my reputation in the company I love.
Sob.

*After a few minutes of facing the wall and think about my mistakes*

I think is good that this happened, now everybody have something to laugh about me. And I've learned my lesson to be friendly until I figure out who is on the line! Haha!

I think God wants me to learn to watch my mouth.
Better learn it now before more chaos happens! LOL

What a day.

Love,
The ever friendly Constance

I LOVE dragonfly

Sunday, December 1, 2013


I'm on a roll!
Out of the sudden I have so much to share here!
Wee~~~~

So I finished reading a book call "Captivating" by John & Stasi Eldredge.
And I wanted to write a book review here. You know, something like the summary of the book.
But after giving in some thoughts, I scrap away that idea. 

Why?
Because I believe everyone will be impacted differently by the content of the book.
Just like the bible, it may appear to me in a way, but it may speaks to you in another way.
Since everyone is different and our lives experience is different, so the change we need is different too.

So what I'm going to do is this, instead of me summarizing the book, I shall put up some content of the book that impacted me a lot, that makes me goes WOW and couldn't shut my mouth. And then you decide for yourself if you want to read it or not. Fair enough right?

So here's goes
Captivating by John & Stasi Eldredge

3 things that tickles my mind the most;-

1. The curse of Adam and Eve
Why did God curse Eve with loneliness and heartache, an emptiness that nothing would be able to fill? Wasn't her life going to be hard enough out there in the world, banished from the Garden that was her true home, her only home, never able to return? It seems unkind. Cruel even.

He did it to save her. For as we all know personally, something in Eve's heart shifted at the Fall. Something sent its roots down deep into her soul - and ours- that mistrust of God's heart, that resolution to find life on our own terms. So God has to thwart her. In love, he has to block her attempts until, wounded and aching, she turns to him and him alone for her rescue.
 ~ Pg 97, Captivating by John & Stasi Eldredge


2. The intimate relationship with God
From potter and his clay to a shepherd and his sheep, there is a marked difference in intimacy, in the way they relate. It gets even better. From master and servant to father and child, there is a wonderful progression into greater intimacy. It grows more beautiful and rich when he calls us his friends. But what is most breathtaking is when God says he is our Lover (our Bridegroom, our Fiancé ), and we his bride. That is the pinnacle, the goal of our redemption (used in the last chapter of the Bible, when Christ returns for his bride) and the most intimate and romantic of all.
~ Pg 116, Captivating by John & Stasi Eldredge

3.The heart of God
You've probably heard that there is in every human heart a place that God alone can fill. (Lord knows we've tried to fill it with everything else, to our utter dismay.) But what the old poet was saying was that there is also in God's heart a place that you alone can fill. "It follows that there is also a chamber in God himself into which none can enter but the one, the individual." You. You are meant to fill a place in the heart of God no one and nothing else can fill. Whoa. He longs for you.
~ Pg 122, Captivating by John & Stasi Eldredge

When I think of the book, this image came to mind

Don't ask me why. Because if I could explain it in words, I would have. But I can't. So I drew this out.

So read it by yourself and feel the way I felt!

Just came back from a short weekend getaway to my friend's hometown.

Although is a quick 1 day 1 night trip, I slept a lot and it was a pretty good break for me!

Will share more soon!

Gonna hit the bed and sleep first, if not I cannot wake up for church tomorrow!

Love,
Constance