Wait for a little longer

Kesiannya

When I was small and Christmas trees were tall~

I thought there's someone working inside the ATM.

XD

Literally.

A wish granted

While Oyan Lok is busy sleeping every minute that she can during our trip to Singapore, I managed to finish the book "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom.

I'm not surprised that I can finish it so fast, because from my past experience his book is just so easy to read and very very addicting as well!

I constantly feel the need to know the ending.

"OMG! What will happen next?"

This book is so awesomely written until I went Google to find out if the character is fiction or not.

Of course, it's fiction. >< 

Children forget that sometimes. They think of themselves as a burden instead of a wish granted ~Pg. 73

When a lost loved one appears before you, it’s your brain that fights it, not your heart. ~Pg. 78

Sometimes, kids want you to hurt the way they hurt. ~Pg. 89

When someone is in your heart, they're never truly gone. They can come back to you, even at unlikely times. ~Pg. 145

One thing I take away from this book is that we should never lie and we should never hide the truth.

Think about it, what if he knew the truth about his father?

Some people think that by not telling the brutal truth, they are doing a favour to their loves one.

But the reality might be contrary. 

The damage of not knowing the truth may be greater than the consequences of telling the truth.

Some truth is hard to swallow. 

But living under a lie or in a lie brings greater pain.

Don't you think so?

Do your loves one a favour one and tell them the truth.

Do yourself a favour by getting ready to hear the truth.

A dream come true

I think if I procrastinate any longer, Oyan Lok will kill me.

So here it is! The final post about our Singapore get away trip!

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We wanted our day 2 kat Singapore chill and relax.

So we didn't plan anything and just met up with a few friends of mine.

One of them is my SOT team mate, Alice and the other is current SOT student, Yuan.

Alice was kind enough to accompany us to Bugis.

But we didn't get anything there cause in our minds we are like "going to BKK soon! Anything that I need I can get it there with a cheaper price!"

So we pretty much just walked around, hang around and talked!

Is so good to finally meet up with her!

As for Yuan, she came over to our hostel and chit chat.

But that Oyan was so tired she just laid on the bed with her eyes close listening to our conversation.

(And interrupt when necessary.*ahem*)

Then we head over to The Tiramisu Hero for dinner.

Do you know that I love you?

During our prayer meeting on Tuesday, we were all given a quiz to do.

The result of the quiz will indicate our love languages.

Though I've heard about this for a while now but I never did any quiz to find out mine.

So, what do you think is my love language?

Love

The question is not "will you get hurt?", rather

Are you willing to risk it?

End too soon

This short short trip to Singapore is actually my first overseas trip with Oyan.

SINGAPOREEEEE here I come!!!

I've read a few articles yesterday and it blew my mind away!

Because it felt so real to me.

Is something I always think about but yet to put it in words.

I was like "Yes! Yes! Yes!"when I read those articles! LOL

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I did one test and the result is this!

It made my day!

I wanna touch life with words!!!

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I never knew I'm a perfectionist until I read this.

But as Pastor Dave said, this are not problems. But my assets! :]

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One of the articles talked about naps.

As I mentioned before, I go home everyday for lunch. 

Which I will take a short 5-10 minutes naps.

I didn't notice the different it makes until last Wednesday when I decided to join my colleague for lunch.

Man! I tell you! I was so tired that day!!!

I couldn't concentrate and my efficiency dropped like crazy after lunch!

All because I miss that 5 minutes power nap!!!!

Taking short breaks are sooooooo essential.

People just somehow don't see it!

Many thinks that they should just work their ass off to get good result.

But the truth is, if you don't take enough rest, you are using more time to get little result.

Your productivity drops and there's no efficiency in the way you spend your time and money.

In other words, you are wasting your resources.

And think about it, time is the only resources that you can never get back!

You gonna "waste" some time to "earn" some time!

I don't care if people say that I'm lazy.

I know what I need to do to get me keep going! :)

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The other article talked about quitting your job.

I've been toying around this idea for a while.

And there's an on-going debate in my mind almost 24/7.

I always know that there's no such thing as perfect moment or enough preparation.

Because no matter how well we planned, things are pretty much out of our control.

So the best time to start something new is always NOW.

What stop me from doing is lack of courage.

I admit that.

The uncertainty of what would happen, how will I survive and what if it fails haunt me all day long.

But deep down inside of me knows this type of fear is good, as it will push me to depend on God more and more.

But then again, I lack of courage.

People tell me that...

I need to have a detailed plan.

I need this, I need that, I should do this, I should do that... 

I need to have enough savings before I make any drastic decision.

But...

Life doesn't give a damn about how prepared you are. It wants people with the balls to make something happen.

And all I need is God.

I'm waiting...

for HIS courage and boldness.

You know how I feel most of the time?

You know the feeling...

When the sky became dark and there's lots of thunders going around but you don't see a drop of rain?

You know is raining soon, and you know is going to be a heavy rain, but there's just nothing from the sky.

That's how I feel....

That something is going to happen, but is not happening yet.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Is so frustrating!!!!!!

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I'll be on my way to Singapore less than 24 hours!!!

I'm soooo happy and excited!

Planned this trip since December last year!

And now it's finally hereeeeee!

Is been 1 year plus since I last been there!

Oh~ How I've missed Singapore!

More and more ink!

These are some of my art for the past week.

And this is fresh from the oven!

Just drew this for Yunn Min. 

More to come.

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Where is Ah Che?

Today, during our department prayer meeting ice-breaker, we each got a question that we need to answer so that other people get to know more about us.

And this is the question I got.

You might not know, but I believe everything happens for a reason.

So when I got this, I stunned.

I struggled to answer this question. 

Especially in front all my colleagues which include my managers.

How would I express to them that I don't see this job as my future?

And the future that I want is something else?

Not to mention this dream is way TOO BIG for me.

Then I realized.

I don't even have the courage to admit to MYSELF that I have this dream.

I'm afraid.

What if this dream never comes true?

But I was reminded that I'm not created to dream small dreams.

And even if it doesn't come true, it doesn't matter. 

Because I tried!

And whether this thing work out or not is really out of my control, is in GOD's control.

So when it was my turn, I said it out loud.

My one goal in life, is to earn a living through writing and drawing so that I can do mission works around the world.

:]

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I read somewhere, someone asked this question

"If God created us all as equal men, why does He make some of us suffer than others?"

I'm not a theologian. But this is what I think.

Because God doesn't measure equality the way we measure.

We as human tend to measure equality (or success) according to the things we have, our circumstances and our environment.

But all these are temporally. Not that is not important, is just not eternal.

And God is a fair God, He is just in His way.

So if you ask me how is He being equal?

My answer would be He is being fair because no matter who we are, where we are, what situation we are in, ALL OF US are just a prayer away from Him.

He is fair because...

The access to Him is equal to all. 

His forgiveness to us is equal to all.

And His love towards us is equal for all.

So is He a fair God? YES, Yes He is.

He is fair, forgiving, accepting and loving!

He is a FATHER to all of us! :)

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Thanks to the broken down lift, I decided to go for a run so that I would not just come down to dabao dinner but also jogging before getting dinner.

Never regretted getting theses shoes!

Best buy ever! I wear this everyday to work!

Worth every penny I spent on them! XD

@DaveGilpin

All I wanted to do last weekend was SLEEP!!!!

But my plan was ruined when the faithful Adele Chow asked me to attend service on Friday night.

And man! I ended up going to ALL 3 services!!!!

We had Pastor Dave Gilpin with us who delivered 3 different messages over the weekend.

Source: CHCKL Facebook

My heart was so blessed by the messages shared by Pastor.

These are some candies I picked up from his sermons.

Friday @ 8:00 p.m

1. Stop singing other's song

2. Believe in yourself

3. Get rid of balance

4. Don't wait till you're perfect

Saturday @ 5:00 p.m

Everyone is just a prayer away from God.

Before Jesus is my Savior, He is my Creator.

Move from sorry to glory.

Sunday @ 10:00 a.m

Is not a disorder but asset.

Pick the game that God called for me.

50% of our weaknesses is mythical, another 50% is reversible.

Focus on the Kingdom of God

These are just 1% of what Pastor had shared.

I was concentrating so I didn't write much notes.

But I'm really encouraged by what he shared.

Is something I need to hear in this struggling season of my life.*again*

As he shared on believing in ourselves, finding back the divine sparks and looking pass my weaknesses, I just felt like my spirit men is punched in the face.

THESE are my struggles!

I needed this punch to get the fire burning again for Jesus.

And I think the reason I've been wanting to sleep so much lately is because the dreams that I had is way more interesting than my real life.

No joke.

Just yesterday I dreamt that I have my own art gallery and I was working in a advertising company where I can just brainstorm for ideas and draw all day long!!!!

If I can, I'll choose to stay in that world FOREVER!

But is ok, though my real world is far more boring (not forget to mention, different) than my dream world, I will work hard so that one day my dreams will come true and my real life will be way more interesting than my dream world!

HMP!!! You just wait and see!!!

The world needs one CONSTANCE LIM!

And it needs you to be you too! XD

INKED again!

I think the best feeling in the world is when you make art and there are people willing to pay for it.

I never in a million years will think that people are willing to pay for what I drew.

But God proved me wrong when I sold a bunch of what I drew few months ago.

And He proved me wrong again when someone approached me and placed an order.

And wrong again when someone bid for another work piece of mine.

These are my 2 new work before I give them to their new owner.

I still find it unbelievable!!!

Let's walk

When I was younger...

I could walk a distance just to get some candies.

I could walk to tuition centers with no complaints.

I could walk back from school under the big hot sun.

I could even push my bike to town just to get it fixed.

Walking weren't a big issue back then.

Feeling hot or dusty weren't my concern.

My parents weren't worried about snatch thieves either.

But now...

life changed.

The 15 minutes walk to my office is way too hot, dusty and dangerous.

The shopping complex next to my apartment is too far for us to walk over.

The main road right in front of my apartment have a higher crime rate than it supposed to have.

Walking seems like a dream nowadays.

I miss those days.

When it was once safe.

One of those days

I think today is just one of those days that I ask myself what am I doing with my life...

Is not like I don't know what I want.

And is not like I'm not doing anything about it.

Is more like, will I ever get there if I don't give up?

or...

Am I just fooling myself thinking I will make it and not make it at all?

SIGH...

God, can You just throw me a "Life guidebook for dummies"?

I desperately need it now!!!! TT