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Love never fails

Mask

*slap*

He slapped her face so hard she can feel the heat on her cheek. She ran through her cheek with her fingers, feeling the warmth of the slap. Her eyes were on him, piercing through his. She stared as if he had crushed her pride that she value more than her life.

“Why are you acting like this? I’m your father!” He shouted at her while she stood still. 

“Don’t you have a little respect for me?” she was still staring at him and he started to feel irritated.

Her heart was beating very fast. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath to control herself from exploding like a dead volcano coming back to life.

“Respect is earned and not a right for you as a father.” He was shocked. It was something his father had taught him before. The irritation that he felt became shame. All he wanted at that moment was to turn away from her stare that was piercing his heart.

“You've lost it 10 years ago when you broke your promise.” She said emotionlessly.

She wasn't protecting her pride, but her pride is protecting her broken heart.

Unveil plan A

Remember I talked about plan A in my previous post?

Yes! Is time for me to reveal what it is all about!

I’m going to BANGKOK!!!!

(not for shopping)

Few months ago, Oyan and I went to Bangkok to celebrate my birthday. 

After we came back from that short 4 days trip, she has the burden to go back to Thailand.

 I, on the other hand did not feel anything and I live my life as normal.

But, few weeks ago, I started to have burden for Bangkok as well. 

I didn’t plan to tell anyone including Oyan but during one of our conversation discussing whether she should go for SOT, I told her about it and she told me she had the burden ever since we came back.

We were both pretty excited and decided to go ahead with that plan.

As crazy as I am, I wanted to go for a month. 

Quit my job, rent a room there and just be in Bangkok and see how God will move. 

But Oyan was pretty reserved about it and she only wanted to go for a week. 

I was pretty disappointed that time, and I thought, there’s goes my plan to quit my job and fly to Bangkok.

So I started the whole drama of looking for job while still keeping the plan of resigning in early October.

I was totally off focus! 

I'm suppose to focus on making Bangkok trip work (because that is what I felt in my heart) but instead I focused on finding a new job.

As mention, that didn’t work out as well. 

I got rejected and I became depressed about it. 

But God with His own amazing way help me to refocus through the words of Kevin Khoo and now the plan is ON!

We’ve already set the date and will be booking our accommodation and flight soon!

I’ve already informed my mother, Shirley and also colleagues.

All of them gave me a nod to go ahead with this plan!

I’m so excited!!!!!!!

If you ask me what I will do there, honestly, I don’t really know. 

Then why am I still going? Because I felt God place this burden for me to go and so I go. 

What if nothing happens? Well, I can only answer you when nothing really happens. 

But honestly, it doesn’t really matter. 

I’m doing this for God, not for the things I can see.

And most importantly, I don’t want to not go and question what might happen if I went 10 years from now. 

So go I will. XD

Even my neighbor at work can tell that I'm very excited about this!

And by sharing this plan of mine to the people around me, I'm also sharing God to them!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

I'M VERY EXCITED!

Connected

The feelings I have towards my iPhone is same as the felling I have towards lizard.

I know it have its benefits but I hate the fact that they are intruding my personal space.

Middle of the night, my phone rang, displaying some demands from a person I barely even consider as friend. At work, my phone beeps, some random people decided to spam the whatsapp group with false news.

My phone contains hundreds of contacts that I barely even contact. 
My whatsapp are filled with groups that I’ve turn on the mute function.

Phone, I thought was to connect people. 
But though we seem a click away from each other, we are further from each other than ever before.

An update from instagram, facebook or whatsapp status becomes our source of knowing if a person is doing well. A like or double tap on our phone’s screen became the replacement of our warm concern. 

Connection has become a tool of getting task done instead of getting connected.

I remember the days I wanted a mobile badly. 
I also remember the troubles I gone through to get my first smart phone. 
Now, I regret getting one and hate the fact that I have one.

Sometimes I imagine my live without a smart phone. People have to text me instead of just App me. 
They have no choice but to call me if I do not reply. 
Life might be better that way. 
They might feel is troublesome and find ways to get things done by themselves rather than bothering me.

 They might finally know that all I wanted is to be connected and not just be contacted.

I fancy the old days where mobile phone does not exist.

Maybe I’ve gotten poisoned by the Taiwanese drama I’m watching, but the idea of an old fashion date seems like a very good idea.

Don’t Skype me, don’t facebook message me, and don’t even try to APP me. Call me instead.

I can control

“Dear, why did you close your window?”

“The wind was too strong?”

“The wind was too strong? You know you can’t control how strong the wind blows right?”

“Yes mama. But I can control how I receive it.”

I LIED

None of the lights in the room were on. He likes it this way. He said it makes him feel safe, safe from the world.

The clock did not wait for him to speak but tic-toc-tic-toc, it went on its own accord.

She sat behind her desk, 7 steps away from the arm chair he was laying on. Although is very tempting for her to do her own work before he speaks, but she did not. She kept looking at his face, trying to read his emotion behind every single movement of his face. But she couldn’t, the dim light that shine through the curtains doesn’t show her much. 

She waited.

“I lied.”He finally said something after 27 minutes of silence. She felt relived. The last time he came he left after an hour without saying anything.

“To who?” She asked as he closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

“Everyone.”

“Everyone?” 

“Everyone.” 

“What do you mean by that?” She was curious.

“Everyone! From the girl sitting in front of your office to the old beggar down the street! EVERYONE!” 

He sounded very angry, not towards her but the world. The emotions that he suppressed burst out like a volcano.

“What did you do?”

“I smiled.”He said as if it was illegal to smile.

“You smiled?”

“I smiled.”

She was confused with his answer why is he filling so much guilt just because he smiled?

“Why is it a lie then?”

“Because I wasn’t happy when I smiled.” You can still feel anger in his voice.

“Then why did you smile?”

“Because all of them expect me to smile!”

“They expect it from you?”

“YES! If I do not smile to them, they say I’m rude and impolite. They treat me like I’m not one of them! Like I’m an alien….” 

Tears were running down his eyes. He grabbed the fabric of the chair so hard you can almost see his nerves bursting out from his skin.

“Just because you didn’t smile?”

“Yes. They refuse to acknowledge any other emotions other than ‘happy’. They think that being sad or angry is wrong. All I wanted to be is to be real to myself! My feelings… Why is it so hard for them to understand?! Can’t I be sad? Can’t I be angry as well?”

“Yes you can.” She said but he didn’t hear her. Maybe he was crying too loud or maybe she was talking too softly. 

“Why must I be happy all the time?! I’m not perfect!!!!”

 “Neither are they.” 

Still counting

Photos. Just photos.

Hometown's hair saloon.

Driving in style.

Egg Mask.

Colleague's birthday lunch, Nasi Kerabu.

Love this quote.

Just trying.

The longest post ever!

A lot of things had been going on recently and I am compelled to write it all down so that one day when I look back I can see God’s faithfulness and goodness in my life.

So, let’s start from the very beginning.

Old Tricycle- Not your usual Yong Tau Fu

I went to Old Tricycle the other day with none other than Oyan Lok.

I’m not sure where she heard about it, but is supposedly to be a very famous BBQ Yong Ta Fu. 

Now, one thing about me is I LOVE Yong Tau Fu. 

Since is famous, I must try it!

The place is not visible from the outside; you got to go behind the shops to find that place. 

To be sure you are at the right place, look out for this wall!

We were both lazy to choose from the lists of choices, so we went for the set of 15 pieces.

We ordered white rice and Chee Cheong Fan to go with the Yong Tau Fu

I love how they use steel plates instead of plastic or glass.
For some reason I like steel plates! XD

We got to BBQ our own Yong Tau Fu!!

Oyan did most of the work cause everything I tried to barbeque turned out black.

I think I was too busy talking than flipping! XD

For drinks, we ordered pumpkin barley!

It tasted heavenly!

When I ordered and saw the price, I thought it was overpriced.

But when I see the portion of it, I have no complains.

I’ve forgotten the total of our bill already.

But honestly speaking I don’t think the food is worth the price, but the experience of it is.

Tauke, one more Yong Tau Fu please!

Old Tricycle Charcoal Barbecue Yong Tau Foo
Faber Plaza, Jalan Desa Jaya, Taman Desa, Kuala Lumpur
Open 6pm-midnight. Closed Tuesdays

GF let's meet

I think one of the best gifts I got for my birthday this year is to be able to reconnect with my University housemates!

It all started when Nee Nee wished me Happy Birthday on Instagram. 

We ding ding dong dong for a while until we finally chat with each other on Facebook! 

I did all those geli stuff and told her I miss her and want to meet up with them! 

And coincidentally (thank YOU ABBA), they were going to have a small gathering anytime soon! 

I very thick face de mar~ So I invited myself to join the FUN!

SuSu drove me and Sam down to Kulai after picking us up from KL Sentral. 

The 3++ hour road trip wasn’t awkward at all! 

You think after so long (the last time I saw them was 2010) we will be a bit paiseh and shy to talk to each other, but we weren’t at all! 

At least I didn’t lar!

 3 of us stayed at Nee Nee’s place where we also met her family members. 

I totally forgotten about this, but Su Lin reminded me that I was once her brother’s fans. ><

Nee Nee’s mom was also very kind enough to give all of us advise on our career path and one thing she said which really impacted me a lot is this “Know what you want and work towards it.”. 

I think I fit into the category where my career is all over the place, with a degree in finance, a career in another and a passion for something else. 

What she said gave me a lot of courage. 

I was super close to make some drastic decision until someone pour a pile of cold water on me. 

But well, that’s another story to share.

Ok! Enough of my bleh beh bih bleh, is picha time!

Fooooood

  

Le housemates!

I love how different we are yet blending well together.

I was teasing Su Lin's bulky camera and this is how she reacted! XD

  

Really enjoyed the entire trip! 

We talked about so many things! 

BGR, career, family and other people! 

Cannot have details here la~ 

Is all Private and Confidential!

Though it had been so many year, but it felt like nothing had changed between us.
But then again, Su Lin did said I changed a bit! XD

Anyway, we must do it again sometime!

Toodles!

Bring heaven to earth

As Christian, we are called to bring heaven to earth.

But what does heaven on earth means to you?

Does it mean unlimited source of wealth?

Does it mean unlimited source of fame?

Or is it the absent of pain and suffering?

The absent of rejection and condemnation?

The absent of sins perhaps?

I have no right answer to this question.

But heaven to me is the constant dwelling in the presence of God.

To me, to bring down heaven to earth is bringing down His presence.

And God is Love.

So I’m called to love all as He had loved all.

Heaven is for REAL!

Totally forgotten how I came across this book but is a book I recommend ALL to read.

Unlike previous posts where I share some of the contents here, I have no extract from this book to share. Because the entire book is about this boy who went to heaven and how his parents got to know about it.

Is very real and comforting at the same time.

I've read about heaven from the bible but it always seems so distance and abstract.

But this book, through the words of a little boy written down by his parents gives such comfort and assurance that heaven is really for real.

If you want to see a glimpse of heaven, read this!

I can't wait till I go to heaven!

Got mud-ed by MUD KL

I’ve never been a fan of any sort of musical.

Other than church production, I’ve never seen other play until July this year.

Kevin Khoo is involved in this play call “MUD KL” featuring the background of Kuala Lumpur.

He had free tickets for the premier and so I went and support!

I tell you, that one hour play is so damn good it didn’t felt like it was an hour long!

Because it was that good, I decided to bring Oyan to watch before Kevin’s contract ends.

(Note: the play will go on for 3 years with different actors!)

Didn't notice the Wau on top of us until the MC mentioned about it. 

The place is not very big, which is pretty awesome because it makes you feel close to the play.

I like how the play is simple yet meaningful.

It really reminds me of Malaysia being a multiracial nation.

Makes me feel really patriotic! XD

I also like the fact that the theater is not big because it encourages audience participation which I did got dragged to the stage TWICE!

And I enjoyed it so much!

No photos were allowed during the play.

But the casts stayed back after that for photo taking session!

For only RM45 (with MyKad) I say this play is really worth the penny!

Even Oyan Lok approves of it! XD

The play is held at Panggung Bandaraya which is within walking distance from Masjid Jamek LRT station.

And its on everyday 3pm and 8:30pm.

For more information and tickets, visit their website here!

No. This is not a sponsored post.