My new HEART

When you think God is telling you something, think again, because it might mean something else.

During Pastor Kevin’s “Pink Heels and Blue Jeans” Part 1 sermon, I responded to the word and I went down, stood in front of the stage and was prayed by Pastor Kevin. I don’t really remember what exactly he told me but I remember it is something like this “You are here not by accident. You are here in this church for a reason. God know that you’ve been hurt and disappointed, He was there and He know how it feels. God is now giving you a new heart, so that you can LOVE again and share your c with others.”

At that point of time, I thought that this “new heart” that God is giving me is to be able to love and trust others again. (Believe me, I have a huge trust issue) But it wasn’t that! During CG meeting last Thursday, when my CG members were sharing their testimony, something hit my mind. It was like a voice telling me that “the new heart that God is giving to you is to LOVE and TRUST in him!”

I constantly feel disappointed and hurt by people; therefore I dare not easily put my trust in people. I dare not LOVE without constraint myself; I dare not trust other people. I’ve put my perspective on men on to God. Therefore I was even afraid to put my trust and hope on to God, because I was afraid that I would end up being disappointed.

When this thought of having a new heart to love God came into mind, I came to realize that if I can’t even LOVE and put my trust fully on to God, who first LOVED me for who I am, how would I be able to spread LOVE to the world? How would I be able to learn and LOVE those who are imperfect if I can’t even LOVE the perfect LOVE, my LORD? Therefore I should start learning to put my trust and hope onto God. The new heart that God is giving me is to experience His LOVE freely.

Oh Father in Heaven~ From today onwards, let me learn how to LOVE and put my TRUST is your perfect LOVE.