Finally

“Finally.” She sighed, relieved that the production has come to an end. 

“Dong. Dong Dong. Dong.” The music of the next scene started playing at the background.

Oh! There are 6 more scenes to go before the production ends. But at least she finished her part and now she can wipe out all the dance steps from her memory.

You might think that she hates being a part in this production. 

She doesn’t. 

Then why does she so eagerly want it to end?

Well, to her, it symbolizes closure. 

The past few months haven’t been easy for her.
Everything that can go wrong in every area of her life did.
It wasn’t easy.

Tears. Joy. Excitement. Nervous. Anger. Disappointment. Fear. Love.

The combinations of these emotions almost drown her.

If it wasn’t for her Father’s constant reminder and assistance to help her to make sense of all these, she would have gone nuts by now.

She try her very best to rush through this season. 

But who can she fool?

Time never stops for anybody, time never run for anyone either.

One lesson she learned throughout these few months is that life goes on, no matter what.

Life isn’t like school exams.

In school, though you have examination on different subject, you can still tackle it one by one.

Finish revision for Maths first then only start on Chemistry. 

Put aside Physics until the day before exam and pray that God will help.

But life isn’t like school exams.

You can’t put aside something and tackle another.

It all comes together and you got to resolve it all together.

And they tangle together as well.

The emotions from work affect your reaction at home.

The disappointments from church affect your passion for life.

Things just aren’t that simple.

Life is complex.

A lot of her struggles and worries are out of her control.

She couldn’t understand why things didn’t work out as she thought it will when she did what her Father asked of her.

Then she realized that she was to respond to her Father request and her Father had never promised the outcome that she hopes for but better (in future).

But some choices were within her hands.

Whether to do what was burning in her heart or just let it slide away and regret in the future.

Whether to follow her Father’s heart or follow her weak will of mind.

She now learns that life is too short to play it safe.

Is nerve-racking to play life her Father’s way, but the excitement and joy of it cannot be compared by the security of social norm.

Words. Glance.

Those were the things that hurt her the most.

Disapprovals, doubts and fears tried to invade into her heart.

She wanted to be safe from all that, but she didn’t run away fast enough.

So they pierced through her heart and bleed.

She could only cry to express.

She could only shout to release.

But the refuge in her Father’s arm always put an end to those pains.

An ending of a chapter it might seem.

But life doesn’t just stop because she wants to or she needs to.

The waves are rushing through her toes, another season have arrived.