I heard your cry

The music was playing and the singer was still singing.

I cannot recall what song they sang but I remember standing in front of the stage wrestling with God.

“I don’t care. Today I want to hear Your voice. I want You to speak through Pastor”.

I was against the norm that day. 

On normal days I will leave once Pastor laid their hands on me no matter they prophecy or say a prayer over me or nothing at all. 

But that day was different, I insisted.

I wanted to hear His voice badly.

I did not walk away after the Pastor laid hands on me. 

I stood there, struggling. 

The devil is a cunning creature. 

He will use what is normal to trick you away from God. 

It was a battle of the mind.

“What will they think of me for not leaving?” 

“What will they say?” 

“Will I get scold for not leaving so that others can be prayed for?”

I gathered all my mental strength whenever thoughts like this popped up.

“NO! I will not leave until I hear God speak to me through Pastor.”
“Lord, please. I really need to hear You.”
“I don’t care what they’ll say. I want to hear from You.”

“God, please.”

And as the battle was raging in my mind I heard Pastor’s wife’s voice praying for the person next to me.


“Good, I’m next.” I thought to myself.

Waiting… and before I knew it Pastor is praying in tongues over me.

“The Lord would say yes, I heard your cry. The time you prayed, you cry out to me. I’m working says God in ways that you don’t see. I’m working to bring things about. You look and you say God how can it be this way and church another way and my family. God says I see the cry in your heart and I’m working says God. I’m working, I’m working, I’m working. As you’re faithful, as you’re faithful you take care of my business and I’ll take care of your business says God. Even in the midst of opposition even in the midst of words that have been spoken, you have been faithful. Today I break the power of the words, I break the power of control and I break the power of the soul tie over your life.”

*Thank you Shirley for the recording*

I fell down and thought it was over. 

But he asked the catcher to bring me up to my feet again and he prayed for joy, joy of the Lord, fresh oil, a new day over my life.

I couldn't stop crying. 

I was touched by God’s presence and I was overjoyed that God responded to my cry.

Is not easy to live in my mind because wars are going on 24/7. 

Sometimes I think I’m crazy because I constantly struggle between what God told me and what was taught.

But to hear God’s confirmation, I know I’m not. 

God had been graceful to me that He had given me encounters after encounters showing me that He is doing a new work in this world and a wave of revelation is coming. 

I’ve seen a lot of His works in the people around me.
(Ok. While typing this I just heard God’s confirmation for me to stay, again.)

What was once closed is going to be reopen by Him.

No. Wait a second, is already opened.

:)

Thank you Jesus.