Le photos of Bangkok'14

Sunday, August 31, 2014


At first I thought of writing a decent travelling post like those others travel bloggers.
But I figured why waste the time and energy to do that since there are thousands of similar posts out there?

So I decided to save the trouble and just post photos.
I admit I'm just lazy! XD

Terminal 21 is within walking distance from our hotel so we went there twice.







The first time we went, our purpose was to visit ALL the toilets.
If you haven't been to Terminal 21 before, you should go!
Every floor have their own country theme like Japan, London and etc.
So their toilet is decorated accordingly.




We went to this cafe which we saw from a blog.
Had dinner at the night market before we went to the cafe.







Had the famous coconut ice-cream at Chatuchak!
Love the fact that they gave us free coconut water while we wait for our turn.

Train is the main transportation that we took!
So must take picture! LOL




We act like a super wulu tourist. Boat ride also must take picha.


China town before the sky went dark.


I really love Bangkok a lot. There's something about this city that captivate my heart to go visit again!

Soon.

What to do?

Friday, August 29, 2014


Sometimes I wonder, how I should decide on the things of my life.
Though many say that is your life and you got to live it the way you want it to be, but I can't help but to realize that almost all the decision that I make will have an impact on others as well.

As much as I act like a lone ranger, my life is not exclusive from others.
But somehow in some way are connected to a lot of different people.
Friends, family, colleagues and some other people.


My decision affects them, and theirs affect me as well.

I'm again at this cross road where I felt compelled to take some action but afraid to take such a big move and affect others.

We are somehow trained to only believe and take action when everything is known and risk is at the minimum.
But what if I want to do something risky?
What if I want to do something out of the ordinary?
What if the only reason I want to change is because I am compelled by His love?

Ok. I digressed.

But no matter what will happen to them they will eventually get it over with right?
I always believe that human are highly flexible beings.

Don't you think human beings are just mysterious?
No one will die without someone, but there's an impact to it.

But I'm not worried if they can still live without me.
I'm just thinking what will happen to our relationship when I really decided to take the step of faith?
Because I foresee many will not understand why and will go against it with good intention.
And I don't want to be a burden to them.

I really don't.

Argh! How lar!

The cry of my heart

Wednesday, August 27, 2014



Show Me Your Glory by Jesus Culture

I see the cloud, I step in
I want to see Your glory as Moses did
Flashes of light and rolls of thunder
I’m not afraid
I’m not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God...
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory

I’m marked by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I want to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I’m overwhelmed
I’m not afraid
I’m not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God...
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, yeah!

I long to look on the face of the One that I love
Long to stay in Your presence, it's where I belong

It’s simpler than it seems

Monday, August 25, 2014



A few of my friends have been asking me to read this book.
But the truth is Shirley gave me this book last Christmas and I finished it beginning of the year.
I think back then I haven't started the whole thing where I share some captions of the books that capture my heart.
That's why there isn't any traits found here that I've actually read the book.

Well, to be honest I doubted a while as well.
Cause without writing (or typing) anything down, I actually forgotten what I've learned from it.
But thank God I bookmarked those captions and as I read back just now, it still reminds and teaches me a lot.

So, here are some captions from Emotionally Healthy Spirituality by Peter Scazzero that caught my attention.

Emotional health and spiritual maturity are inseparable. ~ p.g. 12

The spirituality of most current discipleship models often only adds an additional protective layer against people growing up emotionally. Because people are having real, and helpful, spiritual experience in certain areas of their lives- such as worship, prayer, Bible studies, and fellowship- they mistakenly believe they are doing fine, even if their relational life and interior world is not in order. This apparent "progress"then provides a spiritual reason for not doing the hard work of maturing. ~ p.g. 15

To feel is to be human. To minimize or deny what we feel is a distortion of what it means to be image bearers of our personal God. To the degree that we are unable to express our emotions, we remain impaired in our ability to love God, others and ourselves well. ~p.g. 26

The work growing in Christ (which theologians call sanctification) does not mean we don't go back to the past as we press ahead to what God has for us. It actually demands we go back in order to break free from unhealthy and destructive patterns that prevent us from loving ourselves and others as God designed. ~ p.g. 29

But work for God that is not nourished by a deep interior life with God will eventually be contaminated by other things such as ego, power, needing the approval of and from others, and buying into the wrong idea of success and the mistaken belief that we can't fail. ... ... Our activity for God can only properly flow from a life with God. We cannot give what we do not posses. Doing for God in a way that proportionate to our being with God is the only pathway to a pure heart and seeing God (see Matthew 5:8) ~ p.g. 32

Self-care is never a selfish act- it is simply good stewardship of the only gift I have, the gift I was put on earth to offer others. Anytime we can listen to true self and give it the care it requires, we do it not only for ourselves, but got the many others whose lives we touch. ~ p.g. 35

But an amazing by-product of the emotional-health journey is a fresh discovery of the mercy of God in the gospel. Not only does God not reject or punish us for being honest and transparent about our whole selves, He actually accepts and loves us where we are. We are anchored in God's love as he gives us permission to express ourselves- the bad along with the good- and take care of ourselves in an appropriate way. ~p.g. 54

One of the rich fruits of anchoring ourselves in the inexhaustible love of God is that God heals our image of who He is. ~ p.g. 56

True freedom comes when we no longer need to be somebody special in other people's eyes because we know we are loveable and good enough. ~ p.g 77

Living your God-given life involves remaining faithful to your true self. It entails distinguishing your true self from the demands and voices around you and discerning the unique vision, calling, and mission the Father has given you. ~ p.g. 80

Jesus was not selfless. He did not live as if other people counted. He knew his value and worth. He had friends, He asked people to help him. At the same time, Jesus was not selfish. He did not live as if nobody else counted. He gave his life out of love for others. From a place of loving union with his Father, Jesus had a mature, healthy "true self". ~p.g. 81

Contrast the image with a broken person who is so secure in the love of God that she is unable to be insulted. When criticized, judged, or insulted, she thinks to herself, It is far worst than you think! ~ p.g. 128

Remember who we are dealing with here, God is immanent (so close) and yet transcendent (so utterly above and far from us). God is knowable, yet he is unknowable. God is inside us and beside us, yet he is wholly different from us. For this reason Augustine wrote, "If you understand, it is not God you understand." ~ p.g. 129

At the heart of the Daily Office and the Sabbath is stopping to surrender to God in trust. ~ p.g. 156

To fail to see the value of simply being with God and 'doing nothing' is to miss the heart of Christianity ~p.g. 165

Likeness to our Creator, along with Christ's example, puts us on paths that desire to live in the truth and not in pretense, even when that means a conflict may result. ~ p.g. 184

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My 2 cents:

Be real to God, because that is what He wants. He never wants me to be perfect, but to be real and true to Him so that we together can have a genuine relationship.

Be real to myself, because there's no point hiding. And since God had accepted me as who I am, I might as well be at His side and not His enemy! 

Be real to others, because no matter what they say, only God matters. I live for God and God only.

Is not about do this or do that; yes to this or no to that.
It’s simpler than it seems.

My own little bubble

Saturday, August 23, 2014


I was hanging out with a few of my colleagues.
One of them is way too enthusiastic.
She kept on clinging to me, hold my hand and stuff. 
Most of which I find it very irritating and a little annoying.
So I always give her the cold shoulder.
Most of the time, I just look at her and walk away.

She makes a big fuss about it and complained that I was very cold to her.
Then the other colleague makes a remarkable statement.

"The more enthusiastic you are to her, the cooler she'll be. Don't give her that much of attention and she will come to you herself."

I laughed when I heard that and said that she is one step closer in finishing a thesis about me.
As much as I hate to admit she is right, she is definitely right.

I have my own bubble that I bring along (stay in it) everywhere I go.


Like a normal bubble, you have to approach with care.
Sudden movements sound or touch will burst the bubble!
So I pretty much avoid all of that.

But, if you are smart enough to acknowledge my existent and give me my own space, you are one step closer to knowing me.
Let me do whatever that I need to feel comfortable, and when I'm ready I most probably will approach you myself.
It takes a while before this happens, it might be a few hours, a few days or a few weeks.
Some might take up to a few years! LOL!

The rest of it depends how I feel about you.
Yes. I'm bias. I know.

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We can, but we don't need to.

Thursday, August 21, 2014








I think after a while of following Jesus, we tend to fall into this mode where all we can think is what we can and cannot do as a Christian.

I've been through that season as well. It wasn't easy.
I wanted to "quit" following Jesus as my life before that seems "better".
But that's the problem, how can life without Jesus be better than a life with Jesus?
Didn't the bible say that His yoke is easy?

Somehow we forget. We forget that Jesus came not to enforce another set of rules but to set us free.
Jesus died, so that we can see the Father.

Is easy to be caught up in serving and into a list of do’s and don'ts.
Is easy for us to forget that what matters the most is not our doing.
Is easy for us to think that we must do something to achieve another.
Is also easy to forget that God is bigger than us and He is in control.

Abba let me know that without my doing, He still can run the world.
He told me that, not because He wants me to be lazy.
He just wants me to slow down so I can focus on Him.

I love love love spending time with God.
Though I'm not doing much and seem pretty "unproductive" but I have this relationship with God that no one can steal away from me.

I know the world had educated me that money is important, use your time and strength to earn more so that you can have a secure future.
But who can guarantee that I will ever have enough money?

1,000? 10,000? 100,000? 1,000,000?

I can have 1,000,000 and still have not enough when I face a 2,000,000 problem.
You get what I mean?

My time and strength is limited.
One day I'll age and one day I'll die.

So why do I use what is limited to chase after what is unlimited?
Besides, the things of this world belong to my Father.
And I'm His child.

To me, no money, no serving can ever replace God.
A genuine relationship with God is the most wonderful and amazing thing one can ever experience.
 

Sisterhood 1.0

Tuesday, August 19, 2014


Sorry for my super short not really counted as blog posts updates.

No, I wasn't busy. I just was away.
Even that is not a good enough reason since there isn't many "fake" updates last month when I was away most of the time.

Last weekend, we had our very first sisterhood gathering.
I wasn't aware of the number of people involved until Oyan told me that there were 17 of us just hours before the gathering.
Honestly speaking, I was taken away by the amount of people.
I felt super uncomfortable that all of the sudden I have 16 more sisters.

When I reached there and there are only a handful of us, I was ok.
But when the crowd became bigger and bigger, I started to feel very uncomfortable.
When the gathering started "officially" I became very quiet.
I didn't talk much but I just sat next to Shirley and listen to all of their conversations.

After filling our belly with food, Shirley gathered us all to sit in a circle and ask us to share with each other about our lives.
Some shared their life as a pregnant lady, some shared their life as a new wife and some shared life as a new couple.
Some shared what God had been doing, some shared what God had done and some shared some jokes.
It was... well... nice.

It felt scary yet nice.

Shirley then share to us that we ought to deal with our feelings.
She told us that being a Christian is not about being nice but being REAL.
And she ends the whole gathering with a prayer.

While she was praying, I was talking to God.
God told me that this is a chance for me to experience again friendship among a group of friends and He ask me to enjoy it.
But I was afraid. With lots of failed friendships, wounds and scars, I am afraid of getting too involved in making friends and opening up my life.

But God gave me a beautiful vision.

I saw a child running around among strangers.
He was just being himself and exploring the unknown.
He was without shame or fear.
Not because he will not get hurt, but because he knows that if something happen and he got hurt, his mom is just around the corner waiting to comfort him.

And that was what God want for me.
He wants me to freely be me and enjoy the friendships that He gave, not because He guarantees it would not hurt.
But He guarantees He will be there if it hurts.

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In the future

Friday, August 15, 2014



Sometimes I wish that I have courage to do this NOW.
But I don't and I honestly think is not the time yet.

I really hope I'm on the right track for something greater!

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The Truman Show

Wednesday, August 13, 2014



I was reading a book and it mention about this movie.
It caught my attention and I watched the movie.

Personally, I think is a pretty nice movie to watch.
And it got me thinking.

Will I act like Truman if I'm in his position?

Sometimes in life, there's this irritating feeling that you know something is not right or someone is acting differently. But will you like Truman go all out to find out about the truth or will you rather tolerate with it and live under a lie?

Are you afraid of the truth more than living under a lie forever?

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Le Hotel of Bangkok'14

Monday, August 11, 2014


If I didn't write this down on my "to-blog" list, you won't be reading anything from my Bangkok trip.

Somehow the memory of 24 years old is similar to a gold fish! XD

I had a difficult time to choose which hotel to stay when Oyan gave me around 10 hotels to choose from.
I wanted a hotel with bathtub so that I can rendam my kaki at night after all the walking and shopping.
But there are so many things to consider like location, price, environment and all.
So I gave up my right to vote and asked Oyan to choose instead.

And her final decision was Galleria 10

Source: Galleria 10 Hotel

Though they do not have bathtub, but I still love this place and here is why.

1. Location.

If you haven't been to Bangkok, one thing you must know is that one of the main transportation you will be using is the train. Our hotel is located in between of Asok and Nana BTS station, so is very convenient for us to go in and out. In fact, we kept going back to our hotel to put our stuff and rest before we head out to another destination.


We also went to Terminal 21 (which is at Asok station) not once but twice due to the short distance. The first day we went window shopping and survey the prices there. After we went to all the other places like Chatuchak, we went back there and got ourselves a few great deals.

2. Clean and spacious room.

We specifically requested for a twin room which is quiet. They gave us room 728, which is same as my birthday!


The room was very clean and there are lots of empty spaces for us to "throw" our stuff! XD


3. Friendly staff.

The staffs there are very very friendly! They smile at you every time you pass by and open the door for you as well! They even gave us a free ice-cream upon arrival! Love it!!!

4. Near a church.

I don't know how Oyan finally decided on this hotel, but there's a church along the same street so we decided to attend church on Sunday morning for their English service.


We felt very home, and the Pastor really shared a timely word.

I don't think is "coincidence" that we stayed in this hotel and went to service, because the word shared is what God had been speaking to me. It was a confirmation to me that I wasn't crazy and God is doing a new job all around the world! We were very excited after the service and decided we will come back to visit the church every year! XD

Ooops! I digress.

One thing I hope the hotel can improve is their shuttle service.

Because they are located inside an alley so they do provide shuttle service to bring you to the intersection.
But sometimes you see the shuttle but you don't see the driver!
And the shuttle only send you out and not back to the hotel unless you are lucky enough to see them when you got to the junction (which didn't happen to us).

We were praying so hard to see that golf shuttle every time we walk to the intersection. But it didn't appear!
And the worst thing is the shuttle from the other hotel kept passing by us!

I would recommend them to have the shuttle placed at the intersection there for their customer. If there are customers that want to go out from the hotel, then only they go back and fetch them. If not is pretty wasteful for it to just be at the hotel. 


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Waiting for more

Saturday, August 9, 2014



Leave Me Astounded - Planetshakers

All my hands have made I'm laying down
All that I hold dear, my many crowns
I've tasted and seen of Your great love
You satisfy me
You satisfy me

Spirit fall, open up heaven's door
We're waiting with worship for more
You're the only love that satisfies me

My constant request above all things
Every hour I wake, be near me, oh God
Though I've tasted and seen of Your great love
Show me Your glory
Show me Your glory

Spirit fall, open up heaven's door
We're waiting with worship for more
You're the only love that satisfies me
Lord we run into Your loving arms
We're safe and secure in Your love
You're the only love that satisfies me

Leave me astounded, leave me amazed
Show off Your glory, let heaven invade
We're waiting with worship, we're waiting with praise
For the almighty presence of God to invade

Spirit fall, open up heaven's door
We're waiting with worship for more
You're the only love that satisfies me
Lord we run into Your loving arms
We're safe and secure in Your love
You're the only love that satisfies me

Leave me astounded, leave me amazed
Show off Your glory, let heaven invade
We're waiting with worship, we're waiting with praise
For the almighty presence of God to invade

Leave me astounded, leave me amazed
Show off Your glory, let heaven invade
We're waiting with worship, we're waiting with praise
For the almighty presence of God to invade

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WHY?

Thursday, August 7, 2014










For some sort of reason, we are afraid to accept all kinds of people into our community. We push them away and forced them to be bounded by force of the world when we are all INCLUDED in the plan of God.

Some say they do not fit to be in the Kingdom of God.
Some say they must change before they can be "one of us".
But since when Jesus says that?

Luke 7:36-50
The story of a sinful women washes Jesus's feet.

Jesus let her washes His feet even BEFORE He told her her sins are forgiven.
But yet we ask people to change, stop doing this and that before they are "allow" to praise, worship and serve God.

WHY?

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